Career Shmear

After nearly 2 years of intense writer's block I'm back blogging.

There's a number of experiences I've had since I last wrote that could influence my choice of topics. Finishing university. Job search. Starting a job. The learning curve. Boredom. Fate. Decisions. Relationships. Friendships. Family. Its a tough choice.

So.. to continue in my typical blogging tradition.. I'll start typing and something will come rambling out.

When is it that you figure out what you want to do for the rest of your life? and how are you actually supposed to make that decision without ever really doing it in the first place? When I was small I wanted to be a ballerina who was an artist/writer. I went into engineering.

Maybe you know whats best when you're young, before all the influences begin. Granted, you're influenced by your parents, cartoons, and barbie dolls or (insert boy toys here). But the amount of influence isn't to the same extent that it becomes as you age. And it becomes even harder as you close doors and open others, ignore one persons advice in favour of another, you get my drift? By the time you're in a position to choose a career (ie. after training/schooling whatever) you've basically chosen your path in life without ever really knowing if thats what you want to dedicate your life to.

Its a scary thought to think you've put in so much effort only to realize that what you thought would make you happy is in fact no where near what would actually make you happy.

If you think you know where this is going.. you're probably wrong :p
I am incredibly happy.. and I doubt I could be a very successful ballerina given the fact that my balance is atrocious. I don't regret the decisions I've made.. and I feel sorry for anyone who does regret things they've done. All that I've experienced has made me who I am.. and I know I've said it before but I love my life. Of course I've made stupid decisions, but you live and you learn.

I have discovered that I may not be 100% meant for engineering.. or at least not the detailed designer type. Give me a project to coordinate.. something to plan or schedule.. people to talk to and I'm a happy girl. I'm extremely good at starting something but finishing is not my strong suit. On one hand I could be upset that I didn't know all this before the hair-pulling stress of completing an Engineering Degree. But I loved school and I love the friends I made along the way, the things I learned and I especially loved the challenges. I'm also very happy that I have discovered this before hating my life for the next 40 years in a position I despised.

The whole idea that completing your education means you're done learning and that you're ready to start real life and a career is stupid. The entire process of school was real life.. and probably the funnest years of it. And you're learning every day of your life (hoepfully). You may never know what you're ideal career is and you can change jobs a million times and be completely happy in all of the jobs or completely miserable in all of the jobs. Its really a matter of what you put into it and your outlook on life.

My advice: Stay Positive. But feel free to ignore it if you choose.

Next up. My love of decisions.