The Sum of your Choices

Man does not simply exist, but always decides what his existence will be, what he will become in the next moment.
- Viktor Frankl


Decisions Decisions Decisions.
The decision to write this. The decision to write it at this moment. The decision to post it and every future decision connected with it.

I hate decisions! Think of all the seemingly insignificant choices you make throughout the day from the moment you open your eyes (which is a decision in itself) to the moment you close your eyes.. and who knows what kind of decisions are made while you are sleeping..

Small choices can lead to horrible or amazing things. By making the decision to stop and look at something in the window of a store on my home from work means that i just missed the little walking man that tells you its safe to cross the street. This waiting at the traffic light means I just missed my subway and have to wait another 3 minutes for the next one. For all I know I've just changed the course of my existence by stopping for a few seconds to look in a window.

You run into certain people everyday because you made the decision to leave work a minute later or eat breakfast instead of skipping it. These people could affect you in so many ways. Those moments and choices could get you a job, could get you fired, could make you bump into your soulmate at just the right time, just the right place.

This could make me become paralyzed with fear. Every insignificant thought, movement, word, action on my part could cause some ripple effect of events.. and like the metaphor about the butterfly flapping its wings can cause a hurricane, a world could change.

Instead of staying in my room trying not to move or say anything that may consist of a decision, (which technically wouldn't work since a decision consisting of the lack of action is still a decision) I would rather use that ability of decision making to create positive change, and a little adventure for my adventure starved self. It is a complete mystery what the outcome of todays seemingly harmless decisions will be.